Life After Rape

Time has passed since the night I was raped.

The physical wounds have disappeared.

Sleep comes easily again.

Life marches on.

Yet,

Random things remind me what happened.

A billboard that shows where my perpetrator worked

Hearing music that played in the background

A rude comment from a customer at my place of employment

Small, innocent things unexpectedly transport me back to that night.

A suffocating knot forms in my chest

My breathing becomes shallow

Panic and fear coarse through me

Breathe deeply.

Exhale.

Repeat.

Calm myself and bring my mind back to the present.

This is my new normal.

Note: Although this is my new normal, I have the support of loved ones, great therapy, and my faith in Christ that sustain me in my recovery. If you have been raped, please know that you do not have to go through this alone. There are great resources available to you. If you need help finding resources, please don’t hesitate to contact me. I would be more than happy to journey with you!

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